Sunset in the Far East

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Bagan, Burma…City of 3000 temples…Visual mind blow. Spent a month in this strange and foreign country, only recently opened to outsiders, still under military rule. While the people there are materially poor and utterly under-privileged…they are rich in scenery, culture, family/community, and values…something we Americans take for granted. Oh how I miss chasing the sun…

WE ARE ALL REBELS AT THE LEVEL OF DEEPEST KNOWING…

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noun

1. a person who refuses allegiance to, resists, or rises in arms against the government or ruler of his or her country.

2. a person who resists any authority, control, or tradition.

adjective

3. rebellious; defiant.

4. of or pertaining to rebels.

verb (used without object), re·bel.

5. to reject, resist, or rise in arms against one’s government or ruler.

6. to resist or rise against some authority, control, or tradition.

I believe it is our deepest inherent nature to live free of constrictions, control, tradition, societal ‘norms’, or anything that seeks to inhibit an individual’s potential expressive nature and being…whatever each individual person chooses of and for themselves we must trust, respect, and value that particular person’s knowing what is most true to and for their own highest natures. Be a rebel today and pave the way today for a new society…Besides doesn’t rebel = individual anyway?? What’s so ‘wrong’ with that?? Be empowered…
All love ~K

A Girl Like Me…

So here I am taking the risk to share my thoughts, feelings and experiences with others…I was told yesterday that in order to accomplish my goal of writing a book one day and having it published I must first “give for the sake of giving.” The problem has never been that I had nothing to say… it’s been ‘what’ I have to say and if the world was ready to embrace my far to the left perspectives on life, love, and sexuality.  When your entire existence has been wrapped up in being hushed, or shunned, or discriminated against because you choose differently, it can be quite the fear to overcome and share with a world that has shut you out and beat you down.  When I asked someone once how it was that you go about forgiving those who have hurt you most, they told me to give those people grace, that it wasn’t for them but for me. Those people are our greatest teachers. I am a light that no one can put out. I may shine a little differently, but different does not equal less than. Different does not make others better or me worse. I was born to heal the world of it’s ridiculous notions, idiotic hang-ups, moral and ethical bs, and above all– to bridge love across the boundaries society and individuals establish between different groups of people or individuals.

I am a coutesean, a call girl of sorts… a companion by day and mother/student by night. Eleven years ago my life changed forever because I held questionable company and made drastic choices in order to survive. One day in its entirety, I will share what set me on this journey. Everyone wants to know how a girl like me ends up a girl like me… Just so we are clear—No one wakes up one day and says, “Hey I am dying to make someone else’s dreams come alive and nurture yet another lonely, need-deprived soul,” while each day that passes their own dreams get pushed aside in order to keep a sustainable lifestyle going for them and their child.

When your back is against a wall, and options are minimal…you dig deep and pull out that part of you that takes control making a way out of no way. You ask the Universe what to do with what you have presently before you? I have so few choices because of one not so great choice I once made.  Someone said yes…And a light is reborn into a world that in myth is so dark and degrading.  I suppose this world too exists, but I am here to share a different perspective, a different kind of experience in hopes that the major misunderstanding society has regarding girls like me, and specifically people who have made mistakes, will be clarified.  Does anyone have any idea why the recidivism rate in America is so high? To those who don’t even know what that means–the repeat offenses by offenders–the guys who get labeled lost causes, and yea…girls like me. We aren’t lost causes, we are forced to wander and make ways out of no ways, everything becomes a means to an end…often times bending or breaking laws or codes of ethics if you will…all because no one will take a chance on us and say yes, giving us the ability to empower ourselves and contribute to a greater society.  One lost cause is everyone’s loss. No one understands this.

I am not a victim nor has my overall experience in this alternate-world been a tragedy. What I have found here is in loving the world (my clients) back to health and happiness, I too have been restored over time. I realized life was not allowing me other opportunities because I had a job to be done in a different manner. My role would be taboo and scrutinized, but the role was mine. The most amazing transformation has taken place in my heart through my experiences as a companion to some of the most beautiful men (and women) in the world. And when I say beautiful, I am making reference to their entire persons.  I relate with my clients in such a way possible only because we both have been marginalized at some level and way in our lives.  Me, for choosing by circumstance to live outside the box, and them for having desires and needs that clearly are not being met in a way so depleting that they land on my doorstep.  What I have come to know is that we all crave and desire, yet what we desire varies among the masses. What one desires is all that truly matters. What we think about it and the standards society has set to identify what is right/wrong, good/bad, etc. are where things go array.  I recently came across a new favorite quote by a Sufi poet…”The mind is the bind.” So profound and true. Was true thousands of years ago and things haven’t changed so much.

I guess the long of the short is that indeed I have so much to say and share, and I never knew where to start…maybe the only way to know is to just begin…I pray as I move to push the “publish” icon that my heart and mind and thoughts will be received in love and compassion by all those who come across my blog. As I see it now, I will be randomly posting my thoughts about a thing, or my experience on any given day…I will do this to allow all those misinformed, uneducated, closed-minded, and love deprived individuals to see into the life and heart of a girl like me. A girl like me is not so different from an individual like you, only my heart expands a little more each day by every other heart it touches and heals…I do this with intention and gratitude for the blessings that any insight, information, opinions, networking, bonding, abundance, and overall connection to the outer world this will bring me. In opening myself to the world, I allow for all beautiful things to enter into my life. Thank you now and always…Be empowered…All Love ~K